Recently, I’ve been taking steps to enhance my spiritual growth…as though that were possible…wasn’t that an amazing comment?…sounding all mature and such and then dashing the image with a self effacing comment geared to further my image as a self-serving egotist…I stand in awe of my sickness…but I digress…anyway, I’ve begun seriously practicing meditation, as though there was a frivolous way to practice meditation…of course, if there were, I would have tried it…and being new to all this, I attended Thursday’s lesson on Loving Kindness Meditation at the local Insight Mediitation Center…which frankly is a little like Charles Manson taking a course on sociology…or Jeffrey Dahmer attending Culinary Arts 101…as you may have noticed, I am prone to make rather grandiose comparisons of myself with images that stretch my personal flaws all out of shape, so just be aware…Actually, I should probably back up a bit…I’ve been dutifully meditating for several months now…dare I say religiously…20 minutes a day, twice a day…and I decided it would be interesting to attend the Insight Meditation Center, because…you know…those people might need my help…since I’ve obviously reached Nirvana with my 40 minute daily meditation practice…NOT!!!…So I attended my first “sitting” last Sunday, and as is my practice, I did not pay attention to the schedule shown on the web site…because “fore warned is fore…whatever”…so I didn’t know that the “sitting”…I put that in quotes because I think that’s a weird word to use, even though it is obviously very descriptive of what we are doing…sitting…but it seems like it would be better called “mediation”…that way we would be describing what we’re doing with our heads…rather than what we’re doing with our butts…but I digress…again…so I got to the Center a little before 8:30 am, blissfully…how appropriate is that?…unaware that the lesson would not start until 10:00…I did a TON of “sitting”…I was SO F’ING PRESENT!!!…actually, I liked it a great deal…especially all the silence…coming to a religious service…if it could be called that…and not having to introduce myself to anyone…or have to wear a badge that says, “Hi, I’m new…my name is Rebecca…please hassle me”…priceless…so now we’re back to the Loving Kindness Meditation session…did I mention Manson and Dahmer?…yes?…okay…I am very aware that my heart needs to be more open…much like a dank, dusty closet filled with used sweat socks needs to be aired out…so I think this practice is very good for me…and actually, I have very little trouble wishing happiness, safety, health, and ease for people I deemed to have wronged me…which includes a generous portion of the world population…my ego is so big that I think even people who don’t know me, by that very fact have, indeed, wronged me…because everyone, and I mean EVERYONE, should know ME!!!…and no, not in the biblical sense…I’m not THAT cruel…but I know that if someone is truly happy, safe, healthy, and at ease…they’ll leave me the f’ alone…so once again, my benevolent thoughts towards others becomes self-serving…Rebecca! Your ego is AWESOME!!!